End

Well this is the end. Another year is gone. Another day has finished. 1am Christmas morning and it still feels like christmas eve. I feel kinda bad right now. Christmas is a time for joy and cheer. But right now I'm finding it hard to find things to be cheerful about. I have lot's to be thankful for but that doesn't exactly make me cheerful.

I'm really kinda mad at my family right now. I know that sounds really high school and cliche but it's true. Tomorrow (technically today) is Christmas. The next day my family is planning to leave and go up to my grandparent's house in Virginia. Two days after that me and my brothers are leaving from there to go to New York with some old friends of ours. Then me and Dusty will spend New Years with our friends. Finally we will return home on the second of the new year. Sounds like fun, right? Wrong. This means that on Christmas day I will have to pack my bags for about two weeks. Then as soon as I return I have to pack up for college because I have to move out of my dorm on the morning of the 7th so I have to go up on the 6th at the latest (I'm hoping to go up the 5th and spend some time with friends). I'm excited about the trip as far as new york and new years goes (although it means I'll have to miss out on New Years with my girlfriend). But this trip to my grandparent's house for the two days before that is what makes me most mad. This trip means that I will only spend at the most ten days at my house. This means that this entire break will have less than 5 stress free days (lack of stress is why I was excited about christmas). Also it means that I will miss out on seeing many of my good friends from highschool. And frankly I don't want to spend two days at my grandparents house. They are never all that nice to me and if my other set of grandparents reaction is any clue, my lip ring will cause me to get ignored for two days. Yes this will be a fun little excursion. I'm most mad about the fact that this means that I'll actually have to do stuff on the two days after Christmas. I was hoping that I'd be able to take a little time and enjoy what I get for Christmas. Oh well so much for that. When I get back I'll have at most a couple of days to actually use the stuff I get and I'll also have to pack up for college. Good thing I didn't unpack yet.

I think the summery of this post is how much i hate the holidays when they get stressful. I try my best to not get caught up in the consumerism and stress of Christmas but try as I might my family won't let me just sit around. I know that sounds lazy but as soon as I get back to school I have a lot of stuff to do. It would be kind of nice if I could just take a break occasionally. But that's life and sometimes (read most of the time) you have to do stuff you don't want to. Hopefully I won't be a downer on the trip b/c I want to have a good time. I'm really hoping I don't have to drive tomorrow because I have no desire to drive to a place I don't want to go when a few days later I'll probably have to drive a lot longer distance. Well that's all I got.

Merry Christmas to all and to all a good night.